From the collection The Robot's Twilight Companion
by Tony Daniel
I cannot tell you what it meant to me to see the two
suns of Ferro set behind the dry mountain east of my home. I had been away
twelve billion years. I passed my cabin to the pump well, and taking a metal
cup from where it hung from a set-pin, I worked the handle three times. At
first it creaked, and I believed it was rusted tight, but then it loosened, and
within fifteen pulls I had a cup of water.
Someone had kept the pump up. Someone had seen to the house and the land while I
was away at the war. For me, it had been fifteen years; I wasn't sure how long
it had been for Ferro. The water was tinged red and tasted of iron. Good. I
drank it all in a long draught, then put the cup back onto its hanger. When the
big sun, Hemingway, set, a slight breeze kicked up. Then Fitzgerald went down
and a cold cloudless night spanked down onto the plateau. I shivered a little,
adjusted my internals, and stood motionless, waiting for the last of twilight
to pass and the starsmy starsto come out. Steiner, the planet that is Ferro's
evening star, was the first to emerge, low in the west, methane blue. Then the
constellations. Ngal. Gilgamesh. The Big Snake, half-coiled over the
southwestern horizon. There was no moon tonight. There was never a moon on
Ferro, and that was right.
After a time, I walked to the house, climbed up the porch, and the house
recognized me and turned on the lights. I went inside. The place was dusty, the
furniture covered with sheets, but there were no signs of rats or jinjas, and
all seemed in repair. I sighed, blinked, tried to feel something. Too early,
probably. I started to take a covering from a chair, then let it be. I went to
the kitchen and checked the cupboard. An old malt whiskey bottle, some dry
cereal, some spices. The spices had been my mother's, and I seldom used them
before I left for the end of time. I considered that the whiskey might be
perfectly aged by now. But, as the saying goes on Ferro, we like a bit of food
with our drink, so I left the house and took the road to town, to Heidel.
It was a five-mile walk, and though I could have enhanced and covered the ground
in ten minutes or so, I walked at a regular pace under my homeworld stars. The
road was dirt, of course, and my pant legs were dusted red when I stopped under
the outside light of Thredmartin's Pub. I took a last breath of cold air, then
went inside to the warm.
It was a good night at Thredmartin's. There were men and women gathered around
the fire hearth, usas and splices in the cold corners. The regulars were at the
bar, a couple of whom I recognizedso old now, wizened like stored apples in a
barrel. I looked around for a particular face, but she was not there. A jukebox
sputtered some core-cloud deak, and the air was thick with smoke and
conversation. Or was, until I walked in. Nobody turned to face me. Most of them
couldn't have seen me. But a signal passed, and conversation fell to a quiet
murmur. Somebody quickly killed the jukebox.
I blinked up an internals menu into my peripheral vision and adjusted to the
room's temperature. Then I went to the edge of the bar. The room got even
quieter . . .
The bartender, old Thredmartin himself, reluctantly came over to me.
"What can I do for you, sir?" he asked me.
I looked over him, to the selection of bottles, tubes, and cans on display
behind him. "I don't see it," I said.
"Eh?" He glanced back over his shoulder, then quickly returned to peering at me.
"Bone's Barley," I said.
"We don't have any more of that," Thredmartin said, with a suspicious tone.
"The man who made it died."
"How long ago?"
"Twenty years, more or less. I don't see what business of"
"What about his son?"
Thredmartin backed up a step. Then another. "Henry," he whispered. "Henry Bone."
"Just give me the best that you do have, Peter Thredmartin," I said. "In fact,
I'd like to buy everybody a round on me."
"Henry Bone! Why, you looked to me like a bad 'un indeed when you walked in
here. I took you for one of them glims, I did," Thredmartin said. I did not
know what he was talking about. Then he smiled an old devil's crooked smile.
"Your money's no good here, Henry Bone. I do happen to have a couple of bottles
of your old dad's whiskey stowed away in back. Drinks are on the house."
And so I returned to my world, and for most of those I'd left behind, it seemed
as if I'd never really gone. My neighbors hadn't changed much in the twenty
years local that had passed, and, of course, they had no conception of what had
happened to me. They only knew that I'd been to the warthe Big War at the End
of Timeand evidently everything turned out okay, for here I was, back in my
own time and my own place. I planted Ferro's desert barley, brought in peat
from the mountain bogs, bred the biomass that would extract the minerals from
my hard groundwater, and got ready for making whiskey once again. Most of the
inhabitants of Ferro were divided between whiskey families and beer families.
Bones were distillers, never brewers, since the Settlement, ten generations
It wasn't until she called upon me that I heard the first hints of the troubles
that had come. Her name was Alinda Bexter, but since we played together under
the floor planks of her father's hotel, I had always called her Bex. When I
left for the war, she was twenty, and I twenty-one. I still recognized her at
forty, five years older than I was now, as she came walking down the road to my
house, a week after I returned. She was taller than most women on Ferro, and
she might be mistaken for a usa-human splice anywhere else. She was rangy, and
she wore a khaki dress that whipped in the dry wind as she came toward me. I
stood on the porch, waiting for her, wondering what she would say.
"Well, this is a load off of me," she said. She was wearing a brimmed hat. It
had ribbon to tie under her chin, but Bex had not done that. She held her hand
on it to keep it from blowing from her head. "This damn ranch has been one big
"So it was you who kept it up," I said.
"Just kept it from falling apart as fast as it would have otherwise," she
replied. We stood and looked at one another for a moment. Her eyes were green.
Now that I had seen an ocean, I could understand the kind of green they were.
"Well then," I finally said. "Come on in."
* * *
I offered her some sweetcake I'd fried up, and some beer that my neighbor, Shin,
had brought by, both of which she declined. We sat in the living room, on
furniture covered with the white sheets I had yet to remove. Bex and I took it
slow, getting to know each other again. She ran her father's place now. For
years, the only way to get to Heidel was by freighter, but we had finally
gotten a node on the Flash, and even though Ferro was still a backwater planet,
there were more strangers passing through than there ever had beenusually en
route to other places. But they sometimes stayed a night or two in the Bexter
Hotel. Its reputation was spreading, Bex claimed, and I believed her. Even when
she was young, she had been shrewd but honest, a combination you don't often
find in an innkeeper. She was a quiet womanthat is, until she got to know you
welland some most likely thought her conceited. I got the feeling that she
hadn't let down her reserve for a long time. When I knew her before, Bex did
not have many close friends, but for the ones she had, such as me, she poured
out her thoughts, and her heart. I found that she hadn't changed much in that
"Did you marry?" I asked her, after hearing about the hotel and her father's bad
"No," she said. "No, I very nearly did, but then I did not. Did you?"
"No. Who was it?"
"Rall Kenton? Rall Kenton whose parents run the hops market?" He was a
quarter-splice, a tall man on a world of tall men. Yet when I knew him, his
long shadow had been deceptive. There was no spark or force in him. "I can't
see that, Bex."
"Tom Kenton died ten years ago," she said. "Marjorie retired, and Rall owned the
business until just last year. Rall did all right; you'd be surprised.
Something about his father's passing gave him a backbone. Too much of one,
"He died," she said. "He died, too, just as I thought you had." Now she told me
she would like a beer after all, and I went to get her a bottle of Shin's ale.
When I returned, I could tell that she'd been crying a little.
"The glims killed Rall," said Bex before I could ask her about him. "That's
their name for themselves, anyway. Humans, repons, kaliwaks, and I don't know
what else. They passed through last year and stayed for a week in Heidel. Very
bad. They made my father give over the whole hotel to them, and then they had
a . . . trial, they called it. Every house was called and made
to pay a tithe. The glims decided how much. Rall refused to pay. He brought
along a pistolLord knows where he got itand tried to shoot one of them. They
just laughed and took it from him." Now the tears started again.
"And then they hauled him out into the street in front of the hotel." Bex took a
moment and got control of herself. "They burnt him up with a p-gun. Burned his
legs off first, then his arms, then the rest of him after they'd let him lie
there awhile. There wasn't a trace of him after that; we couldn't even bury
I couldn't take her to me, hold her, not after she'd told me about Rall. Needing
something to do, I took some tangled banwood from the tinderbox and struggled
to get a fire going from the burnt-down coals in my hearth. I blew into the
fireplace and only got a nose full of ashes for my trouble. "Didn't anybody
fight?" I asked.
"Not after that. We just waited them out. Or they got bored. I don't know. It
was bad for everybody, not just Rall." Bex shook her head, sighed, then saw the
trouble I was having and bent down to help me. She was much better at it than
I, and the fire was soon ablaze. We sat back down and watched it flicker.
"Sounds like war-ghosts," I said.
"Soldiers who don't go home after the war. The fighting gets into them and they
don't want to give it up, or can't. Sometimes they have . . .
modifications that won't let them give it up. They wander the timewaysand
since they don't belong to the time they show up in, they're hard to kill. In
the early times, where people don't know about the war or have only heard
rumors of it, they had lots of names. Vampires. Hagamonsters. Zombies."
"What can you do?"
I put my arm around her. It had been so long. She tensed up, then breathed
"Hope they don't come back," I said. "They are bad ones. Not the worst, but
We were quiet for a while, and the wind, blowing over the chimney's top, made
the flue moan as if it were a big stone flute.
"Did you love him, Bex?" I asked. "Rall?"
She didn't even hesitate in her answer this time. "Of course not, Henry Bone.
How could you ever think such a thing? I was waiting to catch up with you. Now
tell me about the future."
And so I drew away from her for a while, and told herpart of it at least. About
how there is not enough dark matter to pull the cosmos back together again, not
enough mass to undulate in an eternal cycle. Instead, there is an end,
and all the stars are either dead or dying, and all that there is is nothing
but dim night. I told her about the twilight armies gathered there, culled from
all times, all places. Creatures, presences, machines, weapons fighting
galaxy-to-galaxy, system-to-system, fighting until the critical point is
reached when entropy flows no more, but pools, pools in endless stagnant pools
of nothing. No light. No heat. No effect. And the universe is dead, and so
those who remain . . . inherit the dark field. They win.
"And did you win?" she asked me. "If that's the word for it."
The suns were going down. Instead of answering, I went outside to the woodpile
and brought in enough banwood to fuel the fire for the night. I thought maybe
she would forget what she'd asked mebut not Bex.
"How does the war end, Henry?"
"You must never ask me that," I spoke the words carefully, making sure I was
giving away nothing in my reply. "Every time a returning soldier tells that
answer, he changes everything. Then he has two choices. He can either go away,
leave his own time, and go back to fight again. Or he can stay, and it will all
mean nothing, what he did. Not just who won and who lost, but all the things he
did in the war spin off into nothing."
Bex thought about this for a while. "What could it matter? What in God's name
could be worth fighting for?" she finally asked. "Time ends. Nothing matters
after that. What could it possibly matter who won . . . who
"It means you can go back home," I said. "After it's over."
"I don't understand."
I shook my head and was silent. I had said enough. There was no way to tell her
more, in any casenot without changing things. And no way to say what it was
that had brought those forces together at the end of everything. And what the
hell do I know, even now? All I know is what I was told, and what I was trained
to do. If we don't fight at the end, there won't be a beginning. For there to
be people, there has to be a war to fight at the end of things. We live in that
kind of universe, and not another, they told me. They told me, and then I told
myself. And I did what I had to do so that it would be over and I could go
home, come back.
"Bex, I never forgot you," I said. She came to sit with me by the fire. We
didn't touch at first, but I felt her next to me, breathed the flush of her
skin as the fire warmed her. Then she ran her hand along my arm, felt the bumps
from the operational enhancements.
"What have they done to you?" she whispered.
Unbidden the old words of the skyfallers' scream, the words that were yet to be,
surfaced in my mind.
They sucked down my heart
to a little black hole
You cannot stab me.
They wrote down my brain
on a hard knot of space,
You cannot turn me.
from the eye of a star
I've come to kill you.
I almost spoke them, from sheer habit. But I did not. The war was over. Bex was
here, and I knew it was over. I was going to feel something, once again,
something besides guile, hate, and rage. I didn't yet, that was true, but I
could feel the possibility.
"I don't really breathe anymore, Bex; I pretend to so I won't put people off," I
told her. "It's been so long, I can't even remember what it was like to have
Bex kissed me then. At first, I didn't remember how to do that either. And then
I did. I added wood to the fire, then ran my hand along Bex's neck and
shoulder. Her skin had the health of youth still, but years in the sun and wind
had made a supple leather of it, tanned and grained fine. We took the sheet
from the couch and pulled it near to the warmth, and she drew me down to her on
it, to her neck and breasts.
"Did they leave enough of you for me?" she whispered.
I had not known until now. "Yes," I answered. "There's enough." I found my way
inside her, and we made love slowly, in a manner that might seem sad to any
others but us, for there were memories and years of longing that flowed from
us, around us, like amber just at the melting point, and we were inside and
there was nothing but this present with all of what was, and what would be,
already passed. No time. Finally, only Bex and no time between us.
We fell asleep on the old couch, and it was dim half-morning when we awoke,
with Fitzgerald yet to rise in the west and the fire a bed of coals as red as
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